The Result of Revenge and Greediness

Reflection: Crusade

     A Crusade for me is kind of ministry or just like the idea of Evangelical crusade, but I never thought that it could also involve killing, and the worst part is killing in God's name. It is my very first time to know that one time in history, the church was involved in killing many lives, led by the popes. I was very shocked and sad upon knowing this. Because of revenge, they were able to do this, even to the extent of using children in these crusades. I also learned that the Popes were behind this massacre a.k.a. Crusades. It is because of revenge but most of all is because of greediness for power. They also let the princes be killed in the battles because they let their wills to be in favor of the church. I know that sadly churches also have many injustices but this kind is very horrible.

     Now I'm really convinced that revenge and greediness for power can take you in doing even the vilest thing here on earth. That's why I must always look in myself and evaluate. Am I holding grudges against a person? or Am I consumed with hunger for power? Because if I am, I'll better ask God for help to change.

     To be aware of myself, first is that I must pursue a deeper relationship with God, or more intimate relationship with Him so that I will not be self-centered. I will also try my best not hold any grudge but to let go of my hurts and forgive and of course ask forgiveness too, this way I know it won't just do me good but it will also bring glory to God's Name, not shed blood using His Name.